Confusion???

I know it has been a long time since I have posted but life is crazy. Paityn is getting big way too fast and I am trying to keep up. At her last appointment she was 24lbs. 31 inches. She has her daddies legs thats for sure. She is only talking a little but she has picked up on sign language very well. She throws tantrums like crazy and over everything. I think she gets that from daddy too!!! She is amazing. I love her more everyday. So one more thing that is so not me. For mothers day I got a skateboard. Nobody thinks that I can learn but I am going to show everyone that I can do it. And to my surprise Paityn loves the skateboard. So if anyone knows someone that can help me learn I am open to some lessons.

I have a new foster daughter. Her name is Angel and she is wonderful so far. But I have only had her for about 3 weeks. I am sad to have to say goodbye to Hailey. but it is better for Cody and I that she is placed in an environment more suitable for her. She is amazing and I hope she can better her life. I think Angel is going to be a handful as well but we are going to try. I liked having Hailey. I know she gave us more trouble then not but she needed somebody to care. I thought we had shown her that in the 6 months that we had her. I hope she realizes that we will never give up on her and if she ever needs to talk then to call.

I am not sure how I feel about losing her. She needs something more then I can give her but I don't think even she knows what that is. I wish she could just let go of the past and work on the future. She has so much potential to be something more. She will probably never see this but if one day she does I hope she knows how hard this is for us to see her go but it is for the best. We have become attached and that is probably the worst thing to do as a foster parent.